Esse Quam Videri

After what feels like forever, I finally got to drawing something that wasn't for school. I guess you could say it was for myself but it was actually a commission that I wanted to do. The idea was to get as many BMF-Autobots in one image and throw the design on a longboard. Due to time constraints as well as miscommunications, it was reduced to just 8 Autobots on a poster. Originally, I had a list of 16-20. However, 8 hours per character (drawing, inking, re-inking due to mess-ups, coloring, etc.) not to mention trying to juggle shit-work, looking for new work, and dealing with crazy's, it's quite the stress-coaster~

Needless to say, this hasn't been the best month. Since summer (maybe even before that), the months progress to becoming worse than the previous one. What options do I have? I could always head back to Colorado Springs. God-forbid. I could tough it out up in Denver but I've been doing that for quite some time as it is. I could move out to a different state and start anew. BUT I need money. So many things. But I guess I can just stay in Denver for a while longer. Besides, my friends are here. Who will they go to when they need rides to the local walmart or when they need a liquor run? Who will I talk to about being gay with each other without actually being gay with each other (Best Hit Generation, where you at~?!)? Where will my successor go to when he needs someone to back him up that Donnie Yen would fuck Tony Jaa to pieces. Or where will he go to to talk about his Siberian tart? You got it....this guy *thumbs to the chest*

Along the topic of jobs, It's still a struggle. I've applied anywhere and everywhere. Even so much as the mall. Just to get me through so I can find something else. And what about the other manager positions I've tried to apply for? They say they're desperate yet they need people to be persistent. Kind of a riddle to me on that one but I still complied with the persistance and still no reply. I don't know...I don't understand why I'm so unhire-able. It's very upsetting. Good thing I haven't decided to read The Fuck-Up. That just might discourage me even more. *hmm* I should make a business card and try to get commissions done for people. Have "clients" spread the word of my talents. Shit, this first commission got me $***.** so get some networking done and maybe I could actually get paid for my talents~

I've been trying to read more often to pass the time. I'm actually building up my Murakami Collection. As it goes so far: Dance Dance Dance; South of the Border, West of the Sun; Sputnik Sweetheart (just finished recently); A Wild Sheep Chase. I've read more but I need to buy them as well. Maybe later. OR I could move towards Urban Erotic Stories. Such books as Thong on Fire, Thug-a-Licious, From the Streets to the Sheets, etc. by Noire (can be found right next to Haruki Murakami. You should give it a read. Pure comedy at its finest. Literally made me lol)~

Family wants me to head to COSprings this weekend. It's the tenant's graduation (finally) on Friday as well as Boboy's baptismal on Sunday. I think I can make it. I don't see why not. It's just a drag to go down to the Springs. There's nothing there for me to do, really. But hey, it's an excuse to see family and score some free grub~

This is mostly just an excuse to blog. I havne't done it in ages and I felt the need that it was about time I leave a new set of footprints in this dismal world~

Currently Reading: A Wild Sheep Chase by Haruki Murakami~
Currently Wanting: food other than corned beef and rice~