Deprivation~

First order of business: I just left the leasing office of my current residence. I must say that I'm not very pleased at all by the whole ordeal. Just recently, my rent has gone up due to finally acquiring a parking spot in the garage (after a 10 month long wait). This was a $20 increase on what I was originally paying. After receiving a notice on my door, the rate increase is higher than what I'm currently paying now (this excludes the additional amount for parking). All in all, my rent has increased by $40 in the span of 3 months. With the property's income restriction cap, the rate seems like an almost impossible feat to perform on a monthly basis. Essentially, a tennant is left to feel that each hard-earned paycheck is devoted to rent. Any other type of necessity or luxury is out of the question. I can't end my contract because 2 months is nowhere near enough time to find a new dwelling quarters. Not to mention the actual act of moving. A month to research and a month to move everything is a ridiculous notion. Even a 6-month lease doesn't provide enough time to get everything settled. Breaking a lease includes ridiculous penalties (the fee itself makes me want to shit all over the hallways). All I can do is bear it until the new lease is up. I've already played around w/ the notion of finding a new place but this new turn of events is more motivation to actually do some hardcore research. And to think....I desperately wanted to live here (yeah...when the starting rate was under $500) but with a web of lies and deception, it's not looking too bright. Its sad to think that, since I've moved to Denver in 2003, I've lived in 5 different places [soon to be 6 come next year]. An average of moving once a year is not a good statistic as far as I'm concerned. If my current residence had a face, I'd punch it with a heaven-piercing drill attatched at each one of my knuckles~

It's Christmas season....I could've sworn I just bought presents and now I'm doing it all over again. Thank goodness for the new job. The increased income helps greatly in comparrison to my last place of employment. People have expensive tastes. Luckily, I don't have many people to shop for. It would be nice if I could make a purchase for my own present but anything too extravegant would be regretted later (especially with this new turn of events with rent and all). I had researched an HDTV for quite some time but the more I look at the grand scheme of things, the TV can wait. As I had made a promise to myself that this year would've been the year to get a car (which did seem very likey), the opportunity never arose as far as finding the car with my desired specs. Sure, I do have the funds to make a purchase but the product itself is nowhere to be found. I've been pretty good about saving money as well as restricting my impulse buys so it'll be more likely that things are FOR SURE come 2010. With that said, I'm hoping my Christmas recipient will enjoy her gift. The girlfriend is a hard person to shop for (if you're reading this, Jordan...I'm sowwy if it's not what you wanted =[ i tried)~

Mundane activity seems to be a reoccuring thing in my life as of late. It's work in the wee hours of the morning until (sometimes) late in the afternoon. Usually followed by well-deserved sleep. As far as social life goes, I'm quite happy that I've been spending more time w/ the girlfriend. It's unfortunate that my work hours are restricting. Otherwise, we'd have more things to do than our usual visit to the local "readery" or teen-haven known as the mall (unless you live in Aurora where you get carded during family night). Selection of movies haven't been up to par lately, either. This also restricts the kind of activities we may partake in. Popcorn has gone stale and I don't feel like shelling out more of my hard-earned money for it. Not unless there's something out there that'll blow my visual intake sockets right out of my skull~

As time progresses, the will of natural instinct has grown. However, the longer we go, it becomes more of an accustomed emptiness. As it is a natural part of life, that desire needs to be filled. Unfortunately, the times have not presented itself. Attempts of maybe having those needs fulfilled are as quickly shot down as the hint is conceived~
Business hasn't been good and sales have dropped dramatically. At this rate, it's only a matter of time until the shops have closed down and the need for consumers will no longer be required~

So far, the end of the year is looking like a craptacular failure. I'm hoping that things will look better during the final weeks of 2009. As we strive forward to a new beginning, it's hopeful that new vigor will replenish the soul and will give reason to continue on this journey. The worst that could happen would be to end this journey and begin a new one. With all the work and effort I've put in, that would feel like defeat. However, I'm the type of person that refuses to be defeated~

"....it isn't zero. As far as I'm concerned, that makes it the same as a 100% chance." -Simon, TTGL

Currently reading: 1984 by George Orwell~
Also enjoying: DJ Hero on HARD, the last of my blooming teas~