Crystal Stasis~

It's nice to hear of the successes of friends/family. Knowing that they are able to achieve a daunting goal is inspiration that I, too, am able to make my dreams come true. There never is an easy way of reaching that destination. If there were, I'd be designing characters for games/movies/animes/etc years ago. Indeed, all the hard work makes you realize that the hardships are worth the final result. Fruits of your labors, if you will. I know what options are available to me. It's just a matter of getting off my ass and taking the initiative. For a while, I've been a sort of slump and had very little [if any] motivation. However, with the help of friends and the realization of my current path in life, I've been fueled with a new vigor to reach what I've yearned for. Steps I've taken: bringing my sketchbook to work every day; write down as many new ideas to develop some story; explore the trends and find what's marketable; research where I need to go and what I need to do to get there. I can no longer be tied down by the "day in/day out" lifestyle. I'm not happy with it so it is my will to overcome the purgatory and acheive paradise~

Generally being a passive person, my hidden nature to never back down seldomly emerges. Perhaps it's resilience or [more accurately] stubbornness. Either way, I believe in equal exchange. Hypocracies that are allowed to take shape when it's supportive of the latter. In acknowledge of this, the reality of the matter is that conflicting sides can't coexist in peace or harmony. In this type of union, the ideals of compromise does not exist. Instead, sacrifice fits the bill. The desire of equality is long sought after. It was that desire that brought our nation to where it is today. Although not everyone is created equal, it makes us strive further for that imaginary utopia. It's human nature. There's the desire to strive for what we don't have. From starting off as a simple want, it gradually becomes a necessity; a need. I have to acquire that need in order to reach my paradise~

In realization, there are many, many steps that must be taken. It may come from different aspects of life but the end result shares a common goal. Consider it my Focus. I would have to complete that focus before the brand of the L'Cie opens its eye. It would help to have a timeline, of course. That would create a higher sense of urgency. I tend to lose my way and forget of hope. It's about that time when I need my eidolon to show me the way and put me back on track~

Along those lines, I've signed up for a Best Buy credit card. Initially, it was so I can get myself an HDTV. My tube tv is on its last legs and I would like to finish my FFXIII experience in its high definition glory. After knowing what I qualify for, it dawned on me that my credit score is not its best. I haven't checked it but I know it can't be very good. Was signing up for a second card a mistake? I hope not. By having a second line of credit, I hope that it can strengthen me in the long run. After speaking with Puraw-Wave and my father, it seems to be the correct course of action. However, maybe now wasn't the best time. After just paying $700+ in taxes, I'm back to living an even more meager lifestyle. Struggling from check to check is what I've gone back to since the removal of Overtime from work. It's going to be a hard journey. But, as previously stated, "all the hard work makes you realize that the hardships are worth the final result"~