Smoke & Mirrors~

As time progresses, I find myself remaining stagnant. With all the efforts of trying to move forward, certain obstacles block my path towards moving up in the world. Recently, it's been known to my Coach that I wish to transfer to a new department within the company. However, with a minor setback, I'm unable to make the transition for another 90 days. What was once a 6 month wait became a 9 month wait. And with all the last-minute policy changes, it's quite likely it might take even longer. My options are to A) stick it out and keep striving to move within ranks or B) continue the search for a more desirable position elsewhere. Based on how things are going, a side-hunt seems to be a more logical course of action. The fact that the combination of normal pay + holiday pay + [mandatory] overtime = less than the girlfriend's base pay makes me more discouraged with my current employer and more motivated to take the necessary steps to make a better life for myself~

Recently tried to take up exercising on a regular basis. 3 weeks in, I'm feeling good. However, with how work's been [draining me physically and mentally], I've been slacking a bit. I've missed an entire week of exercising. I keep telling myself I'll do it tonight but end up too exhausted to lift myself from my bed to lifting some weights. I can already feel the affects of it. Probably not the best idea but I'm going to have to double my efforts this weekend. The fact it's a 3-day weekend, all the more reason to not slack around~

Either I've become more oblivious or more accustomed, it's been at a standstill. Lack of any physical interaction and an increase in monotony makes me question the direction I'm heading in. Things are neither better nor worse. Just there. I'm trying to find a legitimate reason to keep moving forward in that regard but perhaps I've convinced myself it's just normal. Knowing me, I don't want to settle for the ordinary. I want the extraordinary. Hard work is supposed to pay off, isn't it? I haven't seen the fruits of my labor...yet. At least, that's what I keep telling myself. Now would be a good time to gather my thoughts under the night sky as the stars twinkle down towards me; with a Honey Moon loosely grasped in my hand while atop a multi-story garage~

I'm looking forward to the month of July. 3 paychecks in the month will definitely make the savings look a lot nicer. The dream becomes closer to grasp. So long as nothing interferes or gets in the way, I should be able to purchase my steed by August. Too long have setbacks like owing for taxes or faulty transportation issues have gotten in my path. The offer still stands. So long as nothing happens, this time for sure~

With all the nonsense I've been going through in the last few weeks, I deserve a break. I believe I'll purchase myself a gift. Perhaps I'll participate in the War On Cybertron. It'll keep me entertained long enough to avoid any other spending. Then I'll be good to go~