Bronzing~

Although it was probably unneccessary, I spent yesterday at waterworld. 6 hours of water and sun = an even tan [hopefully]. Considering all the things that have been going on, I personally felt that the time off was deserved~

Unable to keep my emotions in check, I accidentally had a mild explosion of rage towards a respected comrade. Although aware of her intentions to bring cheer to my dark time, I really wasn't in the mood to hear a lecture about "giving up" or "losing faith." Besides, after this dragged-on search of 3 years (and not to mention the light of current events), I think I'm entitled to feel tension and frustration. I am, after all, only human~

Thursday, I received a call from a prospective job opportunity. Unfortunately, due to being on the clock, I was unable to answer the call. They did, however, leave a voice mail. Upon immediate relief from the clutches of the timeclock, I returned the call to my would-be employer. However, I was only able to receive the machine. I left my phone number as for return call as well as informing them of my returning the call another time. Friday, I tried to return the call around 11am-noon. Again, I received the machine. I later tried to call the number again and ended witht he same outcome (darned machine). My possible ticket out of the bookstore might've slipped through my fingers~

So here I am in the computer cafe searching for yet another opening door in the workforce. The current door needs to shut soon. I want this. I need this. Yes, it needs to happen. It must. And soon. Because, quite frankly, I'm tired [oh so tired] of being dragged along like this~