Transition~

Crunch-time has definitely made its presence felt. However, I am in no hurry. This is the week of the DNC in Downtown, Denver so I have the week off. This gives me plenty of time to move everything. The majority of things are already packed. All that's left are the bare-essential cooking utensils, clothes, and furniture. Move-in begins tomorrow at 11:30am (well...that's when I sign my lease). Finally, I can claim independence. Aside from my phone, I will have my own bills, my own lease, my own adult life. In sheer cheeseyness, you could say that this'll be a "new lease on life." But that won't be until my source of monetary stability comes from a different origin. With finding a place of my own out of the way, I can concentrate all my energies into the job-hunt once again. The new phone number, the new place, the process of moving...when a person is pushed to limits and given a deadline, he/she can get a lot done~

What this month has taught me (or re-affirmed) is that a person really has only himself to rely on. "If you want something done right, do it yourself. And if the result is unsatisfactory, you only have yourself to blame." Sure, there was help offered but because of my personality, I'm reluctant to accept any (the feeling of being in debt to someone is quite undesirable). There is great pride in accomplishing things on an individual basis. That's not to say that I'm a loner or prefer to be along, it's an elevated sense of fulfillment, success, triumph, whatever you want to call it. For this, I am quite proud of myself~

So, where have I relocated to? I've transfered to a vicinity in the area of a forgotten place where comrades gathered to clock in those extra hours for academic achievement. My no means is it as snazzy as my current/former place of residence but it will fit the bill for the short term. Come February 2009, I'll (hopefully) be somewhere quieter, newer, and more professional. It goes as follows: Cimarron Ridge in Aurora, Concordia in Lakewood, The Lofts at Belmar, and now Brittany Manor in Denver. *sigh* I just remembered that I'll have to do the whole address change process again. Such a pain. The moving process as a whole is a pain. Rest assured, once it's over, I'll expel one of the largest sighs of relief these lungs can breathe. That'll be one less problem to worry about~

Rocky roads this month has been. And even more difficult will the following month be. Although moving will no longer be a part of the picture, I've still got a lot to do. There are more worries that need to be satisfied. Along with this new lease, new contact and so-forth, I've also acquired a new symbol of hope and promise to compliment the one that hangs from my neck. Call it a charm if you will. I call it a piece of mind~

As always, I find myself left behind in the BHG. I've recently received my figure to complete the neko collection. Last again. But it just tells me that I've got a lot of catching up to do. The leader is doing well on his homefront, the subleader is holding his own. Now, the back-up dancer has this opportunity to rise to the ranks and make a name for himself in order to feel the warm glow of the spotlight. Which reminds me, I haven't been to Church in a while. Sad day. That aside, my time will come. Partly because I deserve it. But mostly because I've earned it~

Currently: making final preparations for the move~
Currently Reading: After Dark -by Haruki Murakami~

[re]dial~

The evergoing search for a new home continues. Earlier today, I've made calls/visits to my 2 main prospective places. Unfortunately, apt.1 had no available units. This place might've been my top choice. Its location: DTC, close to lightrail, closer to home, and away from the city. However, since its located next to lightrail, it makes accessibility quite easy. Next, apt.2. The building isn't built yet but people will be able to move in mid September. Their rent starts at $478 for a 1BD/1BA. It's one of those units that an individual must qualify for. Fortunate for me, I do qualify. Unfortunately, all the $478 units have been leased. The next one up is $612. Bottom line, the apartment search must continue~

My luck with searching for a new job shows as much promise as my search for a new home. I haven't heard anything back from the credit union. After the initial interview (a Thursday), I was told to contact them if I haven't heard from them before the weekend. There was no word. So come Monday, I did my follow-up call only to receive the answering machine. I left a message. The following day, I tried to call them again at scattered times of the day. The result was the same. I left a message. Wednesday, same thing with the same result. I think it's clear to me that my experience entire employment history/experience with money handling was not sufficient enough to work at this particular establishment. Bottom line, the job search must continue~

I'm worried that I won't be able to make my supposed deadline. However, I am a little confused on what my options are. My former roommate said that I have as long as I need so long as I make my current payments on rent. My landlord stated that I have until the end of the month. So I wonder, if that's the case, am I at all required to pay for September's rent/club fees? And if I am, since I [would have] paid, doesn't that allow me to stay at my current residence for the month of September? I still have to contact my informant on the details but I'm unsure on his availability. Electronic means of contact will have to do~

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I have recently found that my 2-year contract with Sprint expired August 1st. Upon realizing this, I felt the need to detach myself from my phone service provider of 4 years. It was a good run, I suppose, but it's time to move on. Actually, my main reasoning for leaving Sprint is because I want to invest in an unlocked phone and that requires a SIM card (something that Sprint does not provide). This left me with 2 choices: AT&T and T-Mobile. Both provided features that outdoes the other:

AT&T: 450 anytime minutes with roll-over, 5000 night & weekend minutes, and unlimited text messaging. $65.99 a month (includes est. charges)~

T-Mobile: 300 anytime minutes (unlimited minutes with myFaves top-5), Unlimited nights & weekends, and unlimited text messaging. $60.98 (including est. charges)~

With Sprint, I average about 1600 minutes (total), unlimited text messaging for a hair over $50.00 (this includes fees, charges, and 15% discount)~

The thing that got me with AT&T is the roll-over. I hardly talk during the day so those unused minutes build up throughout the duration of my contract. Based on my average with Sprint, this makes the unlimited option almost unneccessary. T-Mobile, however, DOES have unlimited nights & weekends standard (AT&T, unlimited nights & weekends is an extra $8.99). After consulting my phone advisor, I have decided to make the switch to AT&T. According to him, they have better reception at more places. PLUS, they also provide the 15% discount as well. After spending some dude time with Jon, I found that T-Mobile provides an 18% discount but there's a ton of work to go through so it was too much of a hassle~

My contract with Sprint will officially be over once this pay period is over (sometime in early September). Technically, I have 2 phones now (I finally have a 303 number). But I've decided to run with Sprint until it's finally cancelled then move to my new phone. Once that happens, I'll distribute my new phone number to the people I deem worthy of having accessibility to my person~

*note* it just hit me at this particular moment that next month (as far as phones go) will be a rough month~

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The 2008 Summer Olympics plays in the background. Seeing how my tv is unable to get any channels, being somewhere else is the only way I can watch coverage. US women's gymnastics is fuckin' up with all their out-of-bounds deductions. I don't see how anyone can find the Olympics boring to watch. It's the entire world competing in an event that only happens once every 4 years. That's some big shit, right there. There's at least one thing in the Olympics that everyone would find entertaining. Anyone who thinks that the Olympics is boring deserves a swift round kick to the face~

Two weekends in a row, I've crossed paths with former high school pals. They were also former breakdancing buddies. Watching some youtube videos of their progress (along with gymnastics playing in the background), it makes me wish that I consistently stayed with dancing. Starting from scratch (alone) is quite difficult and hard to stay motivated. I would practice with the people up here in Denver but I feel incredibly intimidated by the pros and feel that practicing at my level would bring about ridicule. Either way, I still plan on acheiving every man's dream to have a rock-solid 6-pack; one way or another~

"NOW YOU FUCKED UP! NOW YOU FUCKED UP! NOW YOU FUCKED UP!" -The Whitest Kids You Know~

Currently: Stressing my ass off~

Bronzing~

Although it was probably unneccessary, I spent yesterday at waterworld. 6 hours of water and sun = an even tan [hopefully]. Considering all the things that have been going on, I personally felt that the time off was deserved~

Unable to keep my emotions in check, I accidentally had a mild explosion of rage towards a respected comrade. Although aware of her intentions to bring cheer to my dark time, I really wasn't in the mood to hear a lecture about "giving up" or "losing faith." Besides, after this dragged-on search of 3 years (and not to mention the light of current events), I think I'm entitled to feel tension and frustration. I am, after all, only human~

Thursday, I received a call from a prospective job opportunity. Unfortunately, due to being on the clock, I was unable to answer the call. They did, however, leave a voice mail. Upon immediate relief from the clutches of the timeclock, I returned the call to my would-be employer. However, I was only able to receive the machine. I left my phone number as for return call as well as informing them of my returning the call another time. Friday, I tried to return the call around 11am-noon. Again, I received the machine. I later tried to call the number again and ended witht he same outcome (darned machine). My possible ticket out of the bookstore might've slipped through my fingers~

So here I am in the computer cafe searching for yet another opening door in the workforce. The current door needs to shut soon. I want this. I need this. Yes, it needs to happen. It must. And soon. Because, quite frankly, I'm tired [oh so tired] of being dragged along like this~

Bleak

The search continues and things aren't looking as hopeful as expected. As previously stated, I've planted many seeds since before graduation. Even before submitting this post, I just completed another online application. Still, no word from anyone. Again, I'm starting to fall into another mental and moral slump due to the lack of hopeful feedback from potential employers~

After a lead meeting today, I found myself caring less and less about what happens in that God-forsaken establishment. As it would appear to be, plans of leaving before rush might be shot. It is my goal to make it out before then but for the time being, I might actually have to work my full 6 months. That would definitely make me depressed~

In recent days, it's been search after search. Let it be in the search of a new source of income, the search in a new place of dwelling, or the search of that step to fulfillment, I'm not finding what it is I'm looking for. As far as I know, I'm taking all the necessary steps I need to. Unfortunately, there is no path presenting itself. Lost as usual, I look back and find myself truly successfully unsuccessful~

Trailing~

In a position to expect change, I find myself hoping for more. It has been deemed that Summer 2008 is the summer of change. That, I can agree with. However, the path that lies before me is as much of a struggle as it has always been. My brothers in arms both share the satisfaction of progression; the feeling of evolution; the joys of moving forward. I, on the other hand, must follow suit so that I may also stand atop the pedastal and have the warm light of accomplishment shine upon me~

There is one thing that is for certain: there will be change during the summer of 2008. I will find myself living in new quarters and I will definitely find myself with a new source of income. I've been searching for more than 3 years. And, with all the seeds that I've planted, there's no way that not one of them can grow~

As a member of Best Hit Generation, I refuse to be left behind. It's like when we'd go on a running/jumping trek. With the mentality of being left behind, I force myself to push harder in hopes to catch up but, in their eyes, I sometimes surpass. Either way, I have to keep up with the progression. Otherwise, I'll be chasing the shadows of my comrades~

This will be a summer of change. This must be a summer of change. I welcome the progression with open arms as I hope it welcomes me. With that mutual, loving embrace, I'll know what it'll be like to finally step foot on the road to success~